Thursday, July 12, 2012

When Did You Notice?


Look I’m not looking to get all gushy about this, I’m just kinda wondering when you were first attracted to men.  When you were a kid? Last week? Coming out of the womb?  I’m pretty sure I remember the first time I was fascinated by a man. It wasn’t so much that I was turned on, but more like I was just fascinated.  Like “man, that’s what I’m gonna look like?”.  Don’t know how old I was. Maybe 10 or so.  I was at a pool club that my friend belonged to and his family invited me to join them. I did, we swam, and afterward we went to the mens locker room with his father. I’d showered there with my friend before but we always kept our suits on.  Not his dad.  He was freakin buck naked. I’m 99% sure I started. I had never seen a man naked. I wqas kinda mezmorized.  I specifically remember thinking “damn I can’t wait to look big like that.”

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  1. I had a slightly similar encounter when I was in the 2nd or 3rd grade. It is unthinkable now, but as a military brat, I would often wander around our base with other little kids. One day we ended up at the base gym and we shot hoops and such. At some point, I must have had to pee and I went into the locker rooms where I saw a man coming out of the shower and of course, there was body hair and a large uncut penis just staring at me!

    The guy seemed to pay no attention to the fact that I was mesmerized. I had to have stood there gawking directly at his dick for 30 seconds.

    I went home and remember describing the scene to my mother, and how the man had what appeared to be a long cigar with hair around it. She laughed but dismissed the issue and that was it. But I constantly but excuses to go in the locker room any time I could.

    My interest in seeing other men's (and guys my age) equipment never really caused me to think I was gay (especially since I had no idea what that was) and I had as much interest in the mysteries of the female anatomy at an early age too.

    I guess I didn't put it all together until junior high, that I wanted to do more than look and admire.

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    1. LMAO. anonymous Jul12@ 6:56 am.

      You telling your Mom "how the man had what appeared to be a long cigar with hair around it"..

      Well I have never smoked a cigarette in my life, but I have swallowed many a "cigar", actually like the one you saw so many yrs ago..

      these cigars, also have two walnuts attached to them.

      Thanks for the laugh


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  2. That's the way it is with sexuality Scott - you do NOT choose it - it's just there and I firmly believe it's there from birth. I started getting all tingly over men's bodies before I even knew what that tingly feeling was.

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  3. I honestly don't know when it happened. I was maybe 9 or 10 when I caught my brother jacking off. I mean, I'd seen naked men in the locker room of the public pool, but I'd never seen a hard-on. I think that's what fascinated me - how big and stiff it was. The next day he showed me how to jack off and we were jack buds from that day forward. But I was still hot for the girls when the time came; still am. But, I still enjoy a nice hard cock.

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  4. My cousin came to live with us when I was about 7 or 8 and it was like having a big brother. He was 18 or 19 at the time and I idolized him. He was from Idaho and we lived on the coast in California. He was blonde, handsome and fresh off the farm. I remember he was really nice to me and would rub the top of my head. My mom kept my hair short with buzz cut in those days and I loved it when Denny would rub my head. I remember one hot summer day when he offered to mow the lawn. I sat on the porch and watched him push the mower back and forth across the front lawn with his shirt off in a pair of jeans, the sweat running down his back. My dad was a little overweight and it was the first time I had really noticed a man's body and was fascinated by the ripple of muscles and his beautiful skin tone. He was completely smooth and my dad was pretty hairy. I followed him around like a little puppy dog. I'll bet he was very amused by the whole thing. We still have a strong connection whenever I see him at family reunions. He's an alcholic and has had a hard life. He looks ten years older than his actual age. That farm boy freshness is completely gone but I have a vivid memory of him mowing that lawn. He still goes by Denny.

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    1. Sad, as to how life turns out. I too have seen someone or two who have impreseed my life, and I think that I would be a disappointment to them, but I remember them and am grateful for them. Thanks for sharing.

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  5. Scott... I guess I agree with Lucky, I can't remember I time when I wasn't interested in other males.

    In the early 1950s, my father took me with him to a sports club on a small lake near our home for swimming lessons starting when I was probably three or four. Very few of the men and boys there wore a swimsuit so we all had an education in the infinite variety of the male body.

    When Dad realized I wasn't a very good swimmer he enrolled me in lessons at the nearest YMCA, where once again we swam in the nude. Nobody made a fuss about it and no one ever made an issue when I fooled around so long as the other guy was a close contemporary. Dad warned me off men and younger boys and females of any age until I got married.

    It was a different time and place...

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  6. Scottie, same exact thing happened to me. Except it wasn't a friends dad, it was a friends much older brother.

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  7. I always knew that I was attracted to boys/men from my first awareness of their bodies. I remember being totally astounded to realize that every man and boy I saw, had a penis....that excited me to no end!
    I seemed to always have a hard on when i was a kid and a teenager. Wet dreams galore as well...always about boys.
    I was always disappointed when i saw a naked girl. Though I have to admit occasionally having sex with a woman...variety, you know.

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  8. I was in the second grade and you couldn't get me away from the TV when Wild Wild West was on and James Conrad would be running around without a shirt and the tightest pants I've ever seen!

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    1. Ah Rich, your my kind of guy, my dude was Heath Barkley (played by Lee Majors), on "The Big Valley", oh man I know I liked men then, and he wore some thight pants too. Love those Westerns.

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  9. I don't remember much in the way of attraction to either males or females until junior high, when I realized I just liked guys better than girls. I didn't see guys naked until high school gym classes. It was fun but of course I had to be careful about looking so I wouldn't get caught doing it and so I wouldn't trigger any "physical response" of my own. I was circumcised and most of the guys I saw weren't so that took a little getting used to, but it didn't make much difference, I liked dick whether it was cut or not. I graduated from looking to doing when I was in college and I've never looked back.

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  10. Newbie here - - excellent blog - - as a gay man i feel a bit like john howard griffen in "black like me" or jane goodall in tanzania watching a group of str8 and not quite so str8 guys having a very open conversation. LOL. looking forward to joining in when i can.

    good question in this post.

    i remember a few defining moments:

    #1 - watching a movie (i think it was a rock hudson / doris day movie which is ironic) and near the end the two characters are in a close embrace and i realized that i didn't want to be the strong man holding the woman in his arms - i wanted to be held in his arms - that i wanted to be comforted by him. i would have been 7 or 8 at the time.

    #2 - in the summer i turned 13 one of the guys in our group "borrowed" his parents copy of "the joy of sex". we all took turns looking at the illustrations and reading sections of the book - or at least i read portions. the pictures of the men and the entry on homosexuality hit me like a bolt of lightening. had my first wet orgasm after spending a few hours with that book.

    #3 - while at university i was walking down a fairly busy main street when i saw a very hot looking guy walking toward me. i must have been staring as he smiled and then i heard someone say "hi there". it was the woman he was walking with - who was a good friend from residence. i didn't even notice he was walking with a woman let alone someone i knew.

    #4 - my mother tells me she knew i was gay when i was 2 - - i refused to wear blue socks with brown pants!!

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    1. #4, got me laughing.
      I think that I was around 9. I had gotten a camera. I would go about taking pictures in the neighborhood. One day, there was a guy who worked at the restaurant across the street. I took a picture of him. He was very handsome. I kinda hung around him and he was nice. I was just a kid. For some reason, I was attracted to handsome people, guys. I had a girlfriend in growning up, but then fooled with a buddy and another buddy. Those encounters lasted until the twenties. I didn't give it much thought. I even spent time in the military. It was after the service, that I met someone through a friend and we were together about seven years. It's not a life that I would choose.Now, with all the stds, you have to be very careful. i would like someone in my life, but I doubt if that is going to happen. I see guys as dogs, nice dogs, but always in heat and on the move. Blue socks with brown pants, that's a good one. Smart Mom! How did your family handle you being gay, if u came out to them?

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    2. She told me that the most important thing was to find someone to love me - and that she didn't care who it was - and that if i loved them she would too. she has kept that promise and my husband and i have been together for more than 25 years.

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  11. I remember finding any excuse after age 7 to take my clothes off with other little boys. At 13 I was put in a dormitory at a private high school so one of my parents could fight cancer without having to tell me. Lots of nudity and jacking off, discovered some guys would push it further if it was just you and them. I got "forced" to do so many things for a few of the bigger guys. Remember visiting a relative who had centerfold picture calendars in his garage. Tits fascinated me but women were just so empty below the waist. I learned to fill their emptiness along the way, but it ain't the same. I had some empty spaces that needed filling too. Been with same guy for 21 years and we're both plenty full.

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  12. I guess I always remember having an interest in other males as well as females. My crushes were mostly for girls, but occasionally for boys. It's as I've aged that my attraction to men has gotten stronger.

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  13. In a sort of backwards way to the other stories told here: When I was 10 my father and I were at a beach and we changed into and out of our swimsuits in a shower room. It was early and we were the only two in there except for a maintenance guy who was mopping the floor. I don't think my father noticed anything, but I saw him looking at us when we were naked, staring really, right at our crotches. It was creepy but also a little exciting to know someone was looking at my nude body. He must have been in his late teens or early twenties. He didn't say anything or come too close. He probably didn't want my dad to realize what he was doing.

    After a couple of hours we came back in to shower and change back into street clothes and that same guy came in again. There were a couple of other men using the showers and he was sneaking peeks at them as well as at us. Again, I think I was the only one who noticed anything and while I thought it was creepy, it was also a little exciting. But I'm really glad Daddy was there!

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    1. I have great memories of when I worked as a janitor in a gym. I used to love cleaning the locker room and watching the men strip naked. I would find some cleaning to do in the shower room toward the end of the lunch hour when they all trooped in to take their showers.
      Some of the guys probably didn't notice. Of the ones who noticed, I imagine some didn't like it, some didn't care, and some liked it. I don 't know which was which.

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  14. I think this post is a bit creepy or maybe its the comments or the pic of that naked kid.....or maybe its the whole combination, but it seems very Jerry Sanduscky. I'm just saying.

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    1. I agree the kid in the picture is too young - creepy

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    2. I am half with you guys on this one, he could of used a older dude in all his "manhood" and still kept the same posting (comment), showing the kid, these days is not in ah "good taste", but then again Scott is not thinking "straight" these days, we all know that.

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    3. Okay, agree, the kid in the picture appears to be 16 or under, but def post-puberty, so forget about Sandusky. But I think the idea is that's a pic of US when we first became aware etc..

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  15. Since always. I had a crush on Gene Kelly in Anchors Aweigh and the one where he danced w/Jerry Mouse. When I was about 10 or so at camp, kids were talking about women's breasts. I thought I'd take a chance and said that I like to look at men's chests. A kid asked why. I had all the info I needed, or so I thought. At about 14, I saw an early "physique" mag and bang!

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  16. When we came on line. We all saw the picture. I don't pay much attention to them. I do pay much attention to the replies of the readers. We have all had experiences, and it isn't easy for any kid growing up. We are in limbo with our bodies. We are in a far a way places with our thoughts, that we don't even understand. I don't think a picture places his readers in that period of youth. He should not have used it. That's my thinking on this, and that picture should be removed. His blog was cancelled once before and I would not be surprised to see it go, again. Maybe it would be the best thing for him. Maybe that's what he wants!

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  17. I took a look backward a on this blog and Scott posts quite a lot of pictures of young, smooth guys. I figure it's his preference. However this one is too young.

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    1. At one time, Scott posted many of great pics, been really going down hill the last 7 or so posts. Think about it, we get a pic of a murderer, that Scott said we should embrace as the next " gay icon", we get what looks like a pot smoker that is puffing from a bong, that is bigger than him, and now we get this little squirt with those little kid legs, (which was creepy to look at)

      If you were here from the beginning, we had a similar post before, Scott, just doesn't have the same "drive" about his blog anymore.

      Granted he's a very busy guy, family, work, extracurricular activities, so maybe it is time to take another break Scott?

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    2. Maybe it's a "new" Scott?

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    3. Well give me back the "old" Scott, this one has lost his way. Just because something is "new", doesn't mean it's improved.

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  18. All of you need to get over the age of this dude. Ninety percent of dudes on the internet are tons older than they appear, simply because of techniques used to appear younger (usually shaving and just being naturally short). And Scott's always been kinda jacked up, so don't get all whiny just because little Scottie is leading him down some other dark alley.

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  19. Im bi, and my wet dreams were all of women back when I was ten. Shortly I would jerk to hot girls, but as I found hardcore porn having the right guy on the porn scene was just as important as having a hot girl.
    I also remember having a crush on a couple of studs that had long hair in high school. Though I never tried anything unit after graduating from college (with a guy).
    Now that I look back I did have a few friends that were into me but being so naive I never did much in college.
    Now I primarily date girls though I love to see gay porn and I do have fun with guys now and then
    Now it's more about the chemistry of the person

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  20. I was about 10 or 11 and I would swim at a local ymca, the guys in the lockerroom would catch my eye, I would think how built they were n hope I would look like that. I also noticed how different they all were with hair and cock sizes up until then I thought all guys looked like my dad did ... Not that I saw him naked often.

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  21. I always knew, even as a 5 or 6 year old I can remember always feeling so secure and loved in my fathers arms, and while it was never sexual in any way I knew on some level that only being in the arms of another man would make me feel that way again. later when I was 7 or 8 I remember the locker rooms at the pool or the times camping in scouts in the showers with our scout masters( yea I know but it was along time ago) and the curious looks and bad jokes about masterbation. And of course my teens, all the desperate excitement of organized sports and raging hormones, fighting back erections and stealing covert glances at the boys next to me. So yea its always been there for me at some level. The sad thing about it though is the way we raise our boys from birth to deny it, to think its wrong or sinful, to cut out that part of our lives to conform to society is just a waste imo. Life is so much richer and fuller when you can recognize it and allow it the proper place it deserves.

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  22. I was gay since a little boy say 5 years. When I convince a boy that we should touch each others cock. In the process I keep playing with other friends since that age until 12 year old. I never realize I was gay until high school. The thing is I have been fighting this since I realize it. However, I know that I am gay and that is not going to change. But still society makes it hard for me to accept it.

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  23. Hummm I love it !!


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  24. In common with a couple other guys who posted on this thread, I was also ten or eleven, and also at a base gym, for a swim class. After the lesson, one of the instructors was in the locker room. He was probably in his late teens. He took off his swimsuit and was wearing a jockstrap under it. I couldn't take my eyes off him.
    With a strap around his waist and his ass bare, he opened his locker and took out a towel. Then he took off his jockstrap, and he was naked. I was poleaxed by an amazing feeling of fascination, embarrassment, and desire.

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  25. I'm still unaware of my sexuality, I'm young. (not sayin my age) but I remember always going to the swimming pool and I'd always stare at other guys in the shower. I of course was young and had no idea of my feelings. Me and my close friend Brent actually fooled around alot when we'd sleep over at eachothers house. (not sex though, oral to be exact.) I still didn't understand even though I was the one who made the first move. I am attracted to some girls but mostly guys. So I'm going by bi until I figure out my sexual orientation.

    Now I almost always feel the "tinglys" when I see a naked man or a really attractive man.

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  26. I remember having a bit of a love thing going when I was 11 for a boy of 10. But I didn't really realise I was gay until I was about 15 and masturbating and try as I might to think about girls, all I could do was imagine watching Malcolm Macdonald, a famous soccer player of the time, getting his kit off.

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  27. I was about eleven y.o when I went into the footy clubrooms after the match, with my Dad. I had never seen, a naked adult guy before and I was fascinated and excited by seeing so many different body types, some hairy, some smooth, some big, some small all fit and with well defined physics. I had had feelings about men that I had been bought up to believe were wrong, but I knew from that day even though I denied those feelings for many years that I was sexualy attracted to men.

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  28. 3rd grade went to a friends house to play, his older brother, high school age was playing tennis no shirt tennis shoes in those short shorts I was mesmerized. Several summers later dad hired some college guys for summer help on the farm that's where I was introduced to man on man sex. I was 15 going on 16 it was a wonderful summer.

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  29. I remember growing up with the Golden Books. Remember those? I had one about going to the doctor and the young girl and boy had to strip to their underwear to get weighed. If I'd known how, I know I would have jacked off to that book on that page looking at the BOY in his white jockies

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